Thursday, September 12, 2013

may 27

Hola mi querida familia! Wow, what a week. I don´t have tons to tell, but mainly a lot, lot, lot of personal growth. First off, my spanish has taken off. It´s like I can feel it just kind of "click". I realized yesterday that I can express just about any thought I have. Now, sometimes I have to explain it the long way because I don´t know tons of vocab, but I can express myself fairly decently.I am so grateful to the Lord for blessing with me with the gift of tongues. And also grateful that He sent me Hna Orozco. We seriously only speak in spanish. There is still SO much room to go. Immense amount of things that I still have to learn in the language, but wow, I can speak in spanish. I can´t believe it. 

I´ve been thinking really deeply this week about a few things. One night I was up for hours with thoughts on my mind. And this might sound really weird, but it´s almost like I can feel my soul and character deepening. I feel a completely new sensation within heart. I don´t know how to describe it, but the phrase coined by CS lewis comes to mind, "the weight of glory." Its kind of like everything is starting to become real. Everything i´ve learned for my whole life is, now, becoming real. The reality of God and Jesus Christ and this plan.... I canfeel it. And it´s chaning me. I´ve realized that it doesn´t magically come in the call, or when you step on the plane, or put on the name tag. It comes from deeply studying the scriptures. It comes tracting hour after hour after hour after hour in the freezing cold having one plan fall after the next. It comes when I´m praying the most intensely I´ve ever prayed before. It comes when we find a family at the end of a long, cold day. I´m not exactly sure what "it" is, but it´s coming slowly to me. 

It´s been a long week of little success. But, like I said, I´ve learned a lot. Also, I´ve learned what a phenomenal privilege it is to be from UT. The capitol of the church! Everyone, when they hear where I´m from, just is in awe that I have been to the SLC temple and general conference multiple times. I was teaching leccion 1 to an investigador last night and he asked where the current prophet was- I told him in UT. And he asked if I´d ever seen the prophet in real life. I said yes, and he said, "you mean that you have actually seen a prophet of God with your own eyes." The spirit was incredibly strong as I testified that yes, I had. And that I knew this was the truth. Ah, I love my mission. 

Other than that...eh, not too much to update everyone on. Just lots and lots of contacting. Seriously, we broke our zone´s record for number of contacts in one week. We don´t have anyone progressing right now and it´s really hard. I´ve never worked so dang hard before. And I´ve never had so little results to show for it. The work is really slow right now. But we´re trying to just keep going and keep working to the maximum of our abilities. 

Have so much fun on your trip!! I want to see pictures and get updates! Have a blast! :) I love everyone so much. Can´t believe that my 5 month bday was yesterday. Time is passing... but at the same time, it feels as if I have been a missionary forever. As I immerse myself even more into this work, I feel less and less of a connection to the world. I sure love my life here in South America! The latino Elderes in my zone are teaching me how to play futbol... so hey, I´m picking up some new talents! 

Mucho amor. Ustedes están en mis oraciones. Disfruten su tiempo viajando! 

may 20

Hi everybody! It was so great to talk yesterday. Honestly, it doesn`t really seem real... that you all actually exist! It was wonderful to see everybody. Ah I love you so much. But actually, after talking to you I didn`t feel too trunky. It`s so weird. My emotions are kind of odd. You see, I miss you and I love you. So much. But, not enough to want to come home. YET! Ha, I`m sure the day will come. but for now, I`m loving being a missionary. 

Dad, I forgot to tell you yesterday, I LOVED the pages of the book you sent. So much!! I am so buying that book in 14 months. AH, no, like 13 months. AH! That sounds SHORT! Time is sure passing by... and your letter, dad you`re so sweet! I would die if I got 20 "free" lessons a week. I have to get those by the sweat of my brow here! Ha, well, more like by the freezing of my toes. I`m so proud of the way you and mom are serving in the church. I am so excited to have a life time  of service still left to give to the Lord. I`m seeing more and more that my mission really is only the beggining. And its fairly easy. WELL, ha, NOT exactly true. its super hard. But its harder to be a stake president with 9 kids running several business, a school, and whatever else you are probably doing. It`s great to be fully immersed in service in the kingdom. I hope the Lord always keeps me as busy as possible builing zion here on the Earth for as long as I live. 

But yeah, the only thing I really am in need of is thermal garments. And gum. Haha, siempre chicle. The kind here is gross... I don`t want you guys to have to spend a lot of money on shipping. Mom, yesterday I was writing about your in my journal and I was remembering our New York trip. That was SO stinking fun. Just the two of us in NYC! Remember that one thai place we found in brooklyn? and watching phantom and hanging out at glenn beck studio and walking around central park and museums. That was a good time! We need to that again sometime in the future. I hope you love your trip out east!!!! Be safe. Im still a worrier. But have fun!! I want to see TONS of pictures. And I would love more pictures! I can`t print them but I sure would love to just see them :) Kinsey, I`m so worried about you and your leg. I hope you can still go to Colorado! It would be a bummer to have to get re assigned. What if you don`t go spanish speaking ¿?¿ That would super tragic. Kidding, any place is a good place. It just wouuld be a better place if you were speaking spanish :) Keep me updated! Have a wonderful time in the temple. I know you will. I will be thinking of you on thursday. I wish I could be there for that kins. I really do. Honestly, more than christmas or easter or my bday or any other occasion... but I am there in spirit!!! Write me all about it. Well, you know, as much as you can ;) AH Im so jealous you are going to the tmeple. 

Okay, I wrote all my friends today so I don`t have a ton of time. But I loved being able totalk for an hour yesterday! I love you all so much. Thanks for loving me and for praying for me. Kiss brigham and summer for me!!!!!! They are SO darn cute. Everybody looks great! Kins, you are beautiful (your face looks a TON thinner). Mom, you`re super pretty as always. I`m so grateful that I look so much like you! Ha, dad, that isn`t an insult. You look great too!! And, have you lost weight too¿ You look thinner!! Jackson and jacob, be SMART. You`re both too good looking for your good. Jack, Keep courtney fairbourn at bay till july 14th.... and even then, dude, you don`t a girlfriend. believe me, its only an invitation to DRMA CENTRAL. Which is a completely overated place. ellie, eli, and sabrina all look a lot older too!! MAN family, what`s up with everyone looking so great?¿ 

Alright, I love you all Talk to you in a week. 

Morgan

may 13

Hey Family!! How are youi? 

It has been an absolutely wonderful week. We had a baptism on Saturday!!! I cannot even describe how incredible it was. I´ve rarely felt the spirit so strong. I LOVE being a missionary. Knowing that I was able to be an instrument in the hands of the Lord and help bring someone to be baptized is just.... there´s not words! Norma is now able to go the Celestial Kingdom. How amazing! I feel so privileged and honored that the Lord is trusting me to be a part of this work. Even if I never baptize anyone else on my mission, she was worth it. SHe is worth every rat, all the rain, the cold, the blisters, everything. I´ve obviously been happy a lot of times in my life! But I have never felt such pure joy as I felt watching Norma be baptized. The words of that scripture kept running through my head, "how great shall be your joy if you shall bring but one soul." So true. Nothing in the world can compare with being a missionary. It´s exauhsting, frustrating, inspiring, and so, so, so wonderful. I´ve never felt the depth of emotions before that I´m experiencing here on my mission. I feel my testimony becoming so much deeper and my conversion stronger and stronger to the Lord. Come what may in life, nothing will slacken my faith in the Lord. Nothing. I don´t care if nothing ever goes my way again, after the things I´ve seen and felt, I will never look back! 

Hermana Anderton left yesterday. It was sad, I cried. She´s going home! Please look her up on facebook and say hi to her for me! Ah I love her. I´m in a temporary trio with hna porter and her companion right now. 

((((DON¨T PUT THIS next part UP ON MY BLOG--- I´m so grateful that I had the trainer I had. Hna Anderton and I were exactly obedient and we worked super hard. I love hna porter and hna catala, her comp, but man, definitely not exactly obedient. They woke up late, started study late, didn´t exercise, and the hardly even planned, and when we were out working they spent so much wasted time in member´s houses and when plans would fall through they´d just walk around... it´s sad. Their trainer was awful. They don´t know how to teaching records or anything. They´ve never touched their area book.. I am SO grateful to have started off my mission running. Hna Anderton was GREAT! I have really good habits thanks to her.)))))))))

mom, your prayer was answered! My new comp is from Mexico!!!!! Her name is Hermana Orosco and she doesn´t speak any English. I talked to her last night on the phone. ANd the good news is I understood everything she said!! Yay! So there´s a slight chance I´ll survive the next cambio. And I´m staying here in Victoria. Ah, cambio calls are super stressful!!! But I¨m a little nervous honestly... I hope she´s nice. ANd that she doesn´t judge me for eating practically only veggies. Guess what? Hna Anderton left me all her work out stuff. before her mission she had typed out a bunch of julian MIchael routines and stuff, and we have been doing them together every morning because it´s WAY to cold to run anymore. ANd she left them for me!! I´m super excited about that. She also left me casi almost of her clothes. I brought way too cute of clothes with me. Ha, I´m definitely morphing into a sister missionary. 

Okay, much love! Kinsey, you are in my prayers with your surgery!!!! Also, would you send me melina´s address?? I don´t know where shés living these days and I have a letter I need to send. Todavía, I haven´t gotten your letters yet. It takes a good month to get stuff!!! It might also have somehting to do with the fact that I´m a good 6 hours away from the mission office right now, so I don´t get mail too frequently. 

Talk to you this Sunday!!! DAD EMAIL ME BACK!!! I love you all :)

Hermana Ferrell 

may 6


Hola! This week has been very interesting. But the great news is, I´m having my first baptism on Saturday at 5pm!! I´m so excited and feel so privileged to have been a part of this miracle. Norma is great! To make a long story short, she had to get a blessing this week because she was feeling really bad. And it was intense! Definitely worked. It was incredible to feel the power of the priesthood work. I´m also preparing 4 other people for baptism later this month.... I hope they all end up working out...

I really love this little place! Even though the ward is only a branch and has a lot of challenges, I´m  really loving it here. I find out my cambio this saturday. AH!! I really doubt I leave Victoria because Hna Anderton and I opened it, so I think i´ll stay here at least another cambio. But who will my next comp be?! I´m hoping for a latina because it would really help me with my language!

Okay, I have a few little tid bits of semi interesting info. my hair goes curly here! Weird, right? I still can´t get over having wavy hair. Also, my blisters have decided to re blister. Thus I have blisters under my blisters. Yes, it hurts. But i´m learning a very valuable lesson. It hurts like crazy to walk, but sitting down hurts worst and prolongs the pain. I´ve decided to zip my mouth and just deal with it because complaining won´t fix it. And the only that will fix it is walking more and even more. Also, it gives my mind something else to think about besides how cold it is! Also, mom you will like this. Chapter 6 of PME was written by elder neal a maxwell. Elder Zwick told us that last week.

I also feel like telling you what happened to me a few nights ago. So guess what? We don´t have rats! But before you get happy about that, just wait. They are so, so, so loud at night. I was talking to a few members about that and apparently that´s completely normal. In fact, they aren´t even called rats. This type of animal is called horean (I have absolutely NO clue how to spell that, I know it´s wrong.) But wesley, from princess bride, had a much better name for them: rodents of unusual size. The members were telling me about this HUGE rats. I thought they were just pulling my leg, but we were walking home from a lesson one night and we SAW ONE in the street. yes indeed, ROUS. fun stuff. So they other night at about 2 they woke me up and I seriously thought someone was in the house they were so loud  (in the walls). So I was just laying there with my feet hurting, I was FREEZING cold, and listening to rats run around the walls. It hit me like a million pounds just how far away from home I was... (kinsey, I envied you and the living conditions you will have!). And to help me from breaking down, I ended up praying for a long, long while. The rats running around in the background must have been the Lord´s way of humbling me. But I feel myself becoming a little deeper and my character becoming a little more solid. I remembered about my ear plugs!! Ha, I thought bought them for a companion that might snore. Little did I know I would need for my dear ROUS!!!

My comp dies this week! So weird. She says when she comes to UT for school this fall she´s going to come up and have dinner with you! Okay, all for now... sending pictures took FOREVER!

Much love,

Hna Ferrell

april 29

¡Hola hola! How is everybody?! I´m doing great! This past week has been pretty crazy. But oh, I have no idea how long letters take to get to you... but I´ve sent quite a few your way! Hopefully those come soon. I feel so disconnected from everybody... Kinsey, you´re probably going through the temple soon. Ah I wish I could be there so very much!! Have a beautiful time.I love the temple and miss it super bad. I saw the temple site in Conce, but they haven´t started it yet. Apparently there are 2 pretty big problems. The members don´t pay their tithing here and there aren´t enough priesthood holders to operate it.... so I´m trying to fix that! Ha, the tithing thing is a BIG issue here. 

Fall is really pretty here in Victoria. Trees are changing colors and it´s pretty. Ha, at least I have something pretty to look at while I´m freezing. A member told me that right now on a scale of one to ten of coldness, it´s a 3. So I have a LOT of fun things to look forward to!! I´m learning a lot about just biting my tongue when I feel like complaining and emerging myself into the work. I´ve also learned the best thing to do is just keep going. Sitting down and crying about my frozen joints won´t do anyone any good. It would just make things harder! So, hopefully I´m just becoming more resilient. 

I ate rabbit.  That was different! But it actually tasted pretty good. I tried my very hardest not to think about what I was eating... but.. it was triste. Also, Kate (cousin kate) would love it here. EVERYONE is obsessed with one-D. SO I have a funny story. There was a funeral this week and the stake president asked us to sing like 3 minutes before the funeral started (we were already at the church for a meeting). This stake pres is super.. haha, uh, different. And so hna anderton and I asked him if God Be with you till we meet again would be a good song to sing. He said no, that was too sad and that we needed to sing something more cheerful. So we asked him if he had any ideas... his idea, In all seriousness, was "Si hay gozo en tu corzón." My comp and I looked at each other trying not to laugh and nicely said that we didn´t think that would be exactly appropriate for a funeral. Haha, could you imagine us up there singing si hay gozo en tu corazón at a FUENRAL?! Ha, so funny.

The work is going great. We have a lady (Norma) who is going to baptized in two weeks and 2 other people who hopefully will be baptized the weekend after that!! It´s so wonderful to be a part of all these miracles. I´m loving it! Seeing other people understand the gospel and feel the spirit is amazing. I´m really enjoying it here. Everyday I can feel my conversion growing and I just can´t comprehend how any RM can ever possibly slack off in the church. And going inactive is just completely unacceptable after saying and preaching and praying the way missionaries do. I´m excited for a lifetime of full time service to the Lord!! THe spirit is definitely guiding me and helping me learn. My companion dies in 3 weeks and she´s getting super excited to go home. And it´s got me thinking that I really truly love you all. In fact I think i love you more now than I did a few months ago. And because I love you, I miss your presence. But at the same time (now don´t take this the wrong way), I don´t miss you at all. As in, I wish I could be with you, but not really. Because that means I¨d be done with my mission. But I miss you.. ah it´s complicated. Hopefully you get what I´m saying! The Lord has really blessed me to not be homesick at all. Well, I am homesick for central heating and zupas. That´s it. And I guess the clima is just part of the experience :) 

Well I love you. OH!!!!!!! so I¨m in this lesson and the esposo of my investigador comes in and starts chatting with us. He had a newspaper in his hand and I asked him if anything interesting had happened lately. He casually replies that apparently "yeah actually, the United States  went to war with North Korea today." Um... WHAT?!? My companion and I look at each other with the expression, "yeah, kind of BIG deal." well, after reading the article I deciphered that tensions are high and that nothing has really happened... but ha, I would like an update on my dear country! It´s so weird to be so painfully out of the loop...

Okay, I love you so much! Talk to you later :) Actually, seriously, I´ll talk to you may 25th!! I´m super excited!

Hermana Ferrell 

april 8

Hola Familia!! How are you this week? I´m doing great, especially after conference. We watched it live in the "gringo" room! Haha I was so happy to be able to hear the conference in English! When the prophet first started talking I was just hit with how much my life has changed. I was sitting in south america, wearing a missionary tag, and speaking spanish. ANd not only that, but everything inside my heart is different. Everything. Nothing at all is the same for me. this conference was incredibely powerful for me. I´ve never appreciated anything more than the sound of familar voices. Seriously, the voices of the prophet and apostles were the first familiar thing I´ve heard from home. My love of this church deepened and I felt overwhelmed with the truthfulness of this work! We have a living prophet, how cool is that? AND SOME GREAT NEWS: we had THREE investigadores come to the conference!! ANd they all absolutely loved it. Elder Holland´s talk, man, talk about powerful. Love him. ANd Elder CHristofferson might have just become my favorite with his Les Mis reference. That was great! I also loved L. Tom Perry´s talk. ANd the prophets. And Elaine S. Dalton. She´s one of my role models! COnference was just amazing. One of the highlights of my mission so far!! I got so much specific revelation and answers to so many of my questions. Elder Holland got up to talk, and took a breath, and my comp leaned over to me and said, "i´m scared." Hahah nothing like Elder Holland to smack down doctrine clear as clear can get! 

Anyway, life is great. I´m loving this culture more and more as the time goes by. One of the members in my branch made me a pretty chilean ring yesterday!! It´s so pretty. I´m definitely becoming attached. I just wish I could speak spanish better!! Dad, I wish so bad I could send pictures! THe ciber here is way old fash. Ha, I took a picture of the computers here. They´ve got to be from the 70s or so. Next week I´m taking a trip to Temuco with my zone, so I´ll be able to send pics there! It´s so beautiful here. Everyday I´m out and I think, "wow this is crazy cool." Take the spiritual things out of a mission and it´s the most adventurous cool thing. Put the spiritual back in, and it becomes the most incredible,. spiritual, sacred, beautiful thing. I´m loving being a missionary. 

A few funny things. They cut their lawn here with scissors. No, that is  not a joke!!! I laughed when I saw it for the first time! It takes them HOURS! Go figure...someone needs to send lawn mowers down here. ALong with central heating. OKAY! I´m freezing my fanny off. I thought I was going to this warm south america country. PSYCH! It´s practically antartica. ANd i´m only slightly exaggerating. I have forgotten what it feels like to wake up warm, or sleep warm, or be warm in the mornings. SOmetimes it heats up during the day. Sometimes not. I´m wearing all my warm stuff, my coat, gloves, tights, thermals, and scarfs and I´m still cold. THe worst part? IT¨S ONLY THE BEGINNING OF FALL!!!! My companion laughed at me all cold and said, "just you wait for the winter, you´re gonna die!" Ha, how comforting. I´m a little scared honestly... so, point being, feel free to send me every warm article of clothing you can think of. ANd it´s not just dry cold like it is in utah, it´s humid cold. it gets into the marrow of your bones and... well, let´s just say it´s pretty cold. And it a veces snows here, but during the winter it rains all day pretty much every day. THis week I had my first experience with chilean rain. I´ve never, ever seen it rain like this before. It´s rains SO heavy. It´s crazy!! But the gospel has to be preached, rain or shine...

ANd on this day, I was knocking doors because every single one of our plans had fallen through that day. People were super rude. And we weren´t having any success knocking. Let me paint this picture. It was FREEZING. It was raining BUCKETS. I thought my toes were in danger of being frozen off. It was getting dark. And nobody was out on the streets. I know, weird right? And the whole street that we were on must have had some big issues cause they were VERY mean. And this one lady said (yelled) to us that we were of the devil and just there to spread lies. I bit my tongue, but I was so very, very, very tempted to say,

I´ve come an awful long way to tell a lie. Do you see what I´m doing right now? Do you realize that I´m thousands and thousands of miles away from home? I´ve left all my family, my friends, my country, my house, my way of life, and literally all of my comfort. I´m standing here in the pouring rain and feel like dying. And I´m here for you. I´m not getting paid,. I´m actually paying quite a bit of money to do this. Do you really think I would do that all for a lie? 

It makes me way frustrated, as you can see. But I love the people anyways. I have some awesome investigadores right now and I really have faith that they are going to get baptized soon :) Which would be a miracles! Good thing God is a God of miracles!

I love this gospel. It´s true and I know it. The first time I told the Joseph Smith story, I felt this almost tangible power fill me and fill the room. And every time I tell it, the spirit just rushes to testify of that event. I know that happened. I am so grateful for the opportunity to serve a mission!! It´s wonderful.

I love you all!! Thanks for all the support :) 

Hermana Ferrell 

Monday, May 13, 2013

Hermana Ferrell's letter home!


Hi everybody! It was so great to talk yesterday. Honestly, it doesn`t really seem real... that you all actually exist! It was wonderful to see everybody. Ah I love you so much. But actually, after talking to you I didn`t feel too trunky. It`s so weird. My emotions are kind of odd. You see, I miss you and I love you. So much. But, not enough to want to come home. YET! Ha, I`m sure the day will come. but for now, I`m loving being a missionary. 

Dad, I forgot to tell you yesterday, I LOVED the pages of the book you sent. So much!! I am so buying that book in 14 months. AH, no, like 13 months. AH! That sounds SHORT! Time is sure passing by... and your letter, dad you`re so sweet! I would die if I got 20 "free" lessons a week. I have to get those by the sweat of my brow here! Ha, well, more like by the freezing of my toes. I`m so proud of the way you and mom are serving in the church. I am so excited to have a life time  of service still left to give to the Lord. I`m seeing more and more that my mission really is only the beggining. And its fairly easy. WELL, ha, NOT exactly true. its super hard. But its harder to be a stake president with 9 kids running several business, a school, and whatever else you are probably doing. It`s great to be fully immersed in service in the kingdom. I hope the Lord always keeps me as busy as possible builing zion here on the Earth for as long as I live. 

But yeah, the only thing I really am in need of is thermal garments. And gum. Haha, siempre chicle. The kind here is gross... I don`t want you guys to have to spend a lot of money on shipping. Mom, yesterday I was writing about your in my journal and I was remembering our New York trip. That was SO stinking fun. Just the two of us in NYC! Remember that one thai place we found in brooklyn? and watching phantom and hanging out at glenn beck studio and walking around central park and museums. That was a good time! We need to that again sometime in the future. I hope you love your trip out east!!!! Be safe. Im still a worrier. But have fun!! I want to see TONS of pictures. And I would love more pictures! I can`t print them but I sure would love to just see them :) Kinsey, I`m so worried about you and your leg. I hope you can still go to Colorado! It would be a bummer to have to get re assigned. What if you don`t go spanish speaking ¿?¿ That would super tragic. Kidding, any place is a good place. It just wouuld be a better place if you were speaking spanish :) Keep me updated! Have a wonderful time in the temple. I know you will. I will be thinking of you on thursday. I wish I could be there for that kins. I really do. Honestly, more than christmas or easter or my bday or any other occasion... but I am there in spirit!!! Write me all about it. Well, you know, as much as you can ;) AH Im so jealous you are going to the tmeple. 

Okay, I wrote all my friends today so I don`t have a ton of time. But I loved being able totalk for an hour yesterday! I love you all so much. Thanks for loving me and for praying for me. Kiss brigham and summer for me!!!!!! They are SO darn cute. Everybody looks great! Kins, you are beautiful (your face looks a TON thinner). Mom, you`re super pretty as always. I`m so grateful that I look so much like you! Ha, dad, that isn`t an insult. You look great too!! And, have you lost weight too¿ You look thinner!! Jackson and jacob, be SMART. You`re both too good looking for your good. Jack, Keep courtney fairbourn at bay till july 14th.... and even then, dude, you don`t a girlfriend. believe me, its only an invitation to DRMA CENTRAL. Which is a completely overated place. ellie, eli, and sabrina all look a lot older too!! MAN family, what`s up with everyone looking so great?¿ 

Alright, I love you all Talk to you in a week. 

Morgan

Tuesday, May 7, 2013

Hermana Ferrells first baptism!













Hey Family!! How are you?

It has been an absolutely wonderful week. We had a baptism on Saturday!!! I cannot even describe how incredible it was. I´ve rarely felt the spirit so strong. I LOVE being a missionary. Knowing that I was able to be an instrument in the hands of the Lord and help bring someone to be baptized is just.... there´s not words! Norma is now able to go the Celestial Kingdom. How amazing! I feel so privileged and honored that the Lord is trusting me to be a part of this work. Even if I never baptize anyone else on my mission, she was worth it. SHe is worth every rat, all the rain, the cold, the blisters, everything. I´ve obviously been happy a lot of times in my life! But I have never felt such pure joy as I felt watching Norma be baptized. The words of that scripture kept running through my head, "how great shall be your joy if you shall bring but one soul." So true. Nothing in the world can compare with being a missionary. It´s exauhsting, frustrating, inspiring, and so, so, so wonderful. I´ve never felt the depth of emotions before that I´m experiencing here on my mission. I feel my testimony becoming so much deeper and my conversion stronger and stronger to the Lord. Come what may in life, nothing will slacken my faith in the Lord. Nothing. I don´t care if nothing ever goes my way again, after the things I´ve seen and felt, I will never look back! 

Hermana Anderton left yesterday. It was sad, I cried. She´s going home! Please look her up on facebook and say hi to her for me! Ah I love her. I´m in a temporary trio with hna porter and her companion right now. 
mom, your prayer was answered! My new comp is from Mexico!!!!! Her name is Hermana Orosco and she doesn´t speak any English. I talked to her last night on the phone. And the good news is I understood everything she said!! Yay! So there´s a slight chance I´ll survive the next cambio. And I´m staying here in Victoria. Ah, cambio calls are super stressful!!! But I¨m a little nervous honestly... I hope she´s nice. And that she doesn´t judge me for eating practically only veggies. Guess what? Hna Anderton left me all her work out stuff. before her mission she had typed out a bunch of julian MIchael routines and stuff, and we have been doing them together every morning because it´s WAY to cold to run anymore. ANd she left them for me!! I´m super excited about that. She also left me casi almost of her clothes. I brought way too cute of clothes with me. Ha, I´m definitely morphing into a sister missionary.

Okay, much love! Kinsey, you are in my prayers with your surgery!!!! Also, would you send me melina´s address?? I don´t know where shés living these days and I have a letter I need to send. Todavía, I haven´t gotten your letters yet. It takes a good month to get stuff!!! It might also have somehting to do with the fact that I´m a good 6 hours away from the mission office right now, so I don´t get mail too frequently. 

Talk to you this Sunday!!! DAD EMAIL ME BACK!!! I love you all :)

Hermana Ferrell 

 

Hermana Ferrells latest letter

Hola Familia!! How are you this week? I´m doing great, especially after conference. We watched it live in the "gringo" room! Haha I was so happy to be able to hear the conference in English! When the prophet first started talking I was just hit with how much my life has changed. I was sitting in south america, wearing a missionary tag, and speaking spanish. ANd not only that, but everything inside my heart is different. Everything. Nothing at all is the same for me. this conference was incredibely powerful for me. I´ve never appreciated anything more than the sound of familar voices. Seriously, the voices of the prophet and apostles were the first familiar thing I´ve heard from home. My love of this church deepened and I felt overwhelmed with the truthfulness of this work! We have a living prophet, how cool is that? AND SOME GREAT NEWS: we had THREE investigadores come to the conference!! ANd they all absolutely loved it. Elder Holland´s talk, man, talk about powerful. Love him. ANd Elder CHristofferson might have just become my favorite with his Les Mis reference. That was great! I also loved L. Tom Perry´s talk. ANd the prophets. And Elaine S. Dalton. She´s one of my role models! COnference was just amazing. One of the highlights of my mission so far!! I got so much specific revelation and answers to so many of my questions. Elder Holland got up to talk, and took a breath, and my comp leaned over to me and said, "i´m scared." Hahah nothing like Elder Holland to smack down doctrine clear as clear can get!

Anyway, life is great. I´m loving this culture more and more as the time goes by. One of the members in my branch made me a pretty chilean ring yesterday!! It´s so pretty. I´m definitely becoming attached. I just wish I could speak spanish better!! Dad, I wish so bad I could send pictures! THe ciber here is way old fash. Ha, I took a picture of the computers here. They´ve got to be from the 70s or so. Next week I´m taking a trip to Temuco with my zone, so I´ll be able to send pics there! It´s so beautiful here. Everyday I´m out and I think, "wow this is crazy cool." Take the spiritual things out of a mission and it´s the most adventurous cool thing. Put the spiritual back in, and it becomes the most incredible,. spiritual, sacred, beautiful thing. I´m loving being a missionary. 

A few funny things. They cut their lawn here with scissors. No, that is  not a joke!!! I laughed when I saw it for the first time! It takes them HOURS! Go figure...someone needs to send lawn mowers down here. ALong with central heating. OKAY! I´m freezing my fanny off. I thought I was going to this warm south america country. PSYCH! It´s practically antartica. ANd i´m only slightly exaggerating. I have forgotten what it feels like to wake up warm, or sleep warm, or be warm in the mornings. SOmetimes it heats up during the day. Sometimes not. I´m wearing all my warm stuff, my coat, gloves, tights, thermals, and scarfs and I´m still cold. THe worst part? IT¨S ONLY THE BEGINNING OF FALL!!!! My companion laughed at me all cold and said, "just you wait for the winter, you´re gonna die!" Ha, how comforting. I´m a little scared honestly... so, point being, feel free to send me every warm article of clothing you can think of. ANd it´s not just dry cold like it is in utah, it´s humid cold. it gets into the marrow of your bones and... well, let´s just say it´s pretty cold. And it a veces snows here, but during the winter it rains all day pretty much every day. THis week I had my first experience with chilean rain. I´ve never, ever seen it rain like this before. It´s rains SO heavy. It´s crazy!! But the gospel has to be preached, rain or shine...

ANd on this day, I was knocking doors because every single one of our plans had fallen through that day. People were super rude. And we weren´t having any success knocking. Let me paint this picture. It was FREEZING. It was raining BUCKETS. I thought my toes were in danger of being frozen off. It was getting dark. And nobody was out on the streets. I know, weird right? And the whole street that we were on must have had some big issues cause they were VERY mean. And this one lady said (yelled) to us that we were of the devil and just there to spread lies. I bit my tongue, but I was so very, very, very tempted to say,

I´ve come an awful long way to tell a lie. Do you see what I´m doing right now? Do you realize that I´m thousands and thousands of miles away from home? I´ve left all my family, my friends, my country, my house, my way of life, and literally all of my comfort. I´m standing here in the pouring rain and feel like dying. And I´m here for you. I´m not getting paid,. I´m actually paying quite a bit of money to do this. Do you really think I would do that all for a lie? 

It makes me way frustrated, as you can see. But I love the people anyways. I have some awesome investigadores right now and I really have faith that they are going to get baptized soon :) Which would be a miracles! Good thing God is a God of miracles!

I love this gospel. It´s true and I know it. The first time I told the Joseph Smith story, I felt this almost tangible power fill me and fill the room. And every time I tell it, the spirit just rushes to testify of that event. I know that happened. I am so grateful for the opportunity to serve a mission!! It´s wonderful.

I love you all!! Thanks for all the support :) 

Hermana Ferrell 

Monday, April 1, 2013

Hermana Ferrell's P-day letter

Hola!! ¿Como están? Family, I´m assuming you´re still in peru! and hopefully having a fantastic time! :) I´m so excited to hear all about your experiences!! I¨m sure you´re having all sorts of adventures. Well, there´s not too much to say about life this week but let me tell you a few things that went down! Right now I´m just mainly excited for all the great things that I hear about from home! Kinsey, I´m still so, so, so thrilled about your call. LET ME KNOW WHERE MISS CARINA GOES! And oh my gosh shay, I´m dying inside right now  because of enthusiasm for you!!! MIERCOLES! AH!!! I wish so bad i could´ve been with you yesterday at your farewell. I was definitely thinking about you. 

First off, I got your easter package!! I loved it. SO much!!! Seriously, it made me incredibely happy. THe himnarios were perfect! I used them yesterday at church and wow they made a huge difference! I shared my cadbury eggs with my district and most of them are natives from peru or argentina, and they absolutely LOVED those. Ha, apparently they don´t make them here in south america! BUt thank you, thank you. I loved getting that. Mom, the quotes-spiritual thoughts that you shared are so great. I marked them and wrote a whole bunch of stuff in my scriptures about those. I especially liked what you sent about following the spirit. 

One of the missionary couples in my zone (the husband), super sick. He somehow caught minigitis. and yeah... right now the prognosis is that he will either die or be paralyzed. Not too great options. Presidente Martinez (my mission pdte) called us the other day and asked us to go and spend the day with them at the hospital. Once again, I am incredibely grateful to be from america. I adore chile, but let´s just say the medical care is not up to par. But, after having been to africa, It´s not the worst I´ve seen. But yeah I got to go to Temuco to be with them and I love that city! Super big and super fun. I had my very first empanada. WONDERFUL! I might have an addiction...

The work is my sector has been super slow. Hna Anderton and I are working our very hardest and this week we started seeing the fruits of that! One of our investigadores came to church!!! YAY!! I really think she will be baptized. It´s great! Other than her, Jessica (such a latin name, right?) we are still working with people helping them to progress. 

So pascua here was very, very interesting. Haha. Wow. The chilenos get quite into it! I never knew such religious fanatiscm (yeah sorry about that spelling) even existed! I mean, wow. THe evangelicals here go straight up crazy. Ha it´s actually kind of funny. We live right in front of a catholic church (an outdoor one) AND an  evangelical one. Not to mention there are evangelical churches on practically ever single corner. THe people like yell their prayers and sway and cry and do all this stuff. So we were in a lesson with this one evangelical lady and we asked her to say the closing prayer. Haha, probably a mistake. We´re kneeling and she´s saying this prayer at the top of her lungs and then she stands up and puts her hands in the air and starts saying ¨GLORIA, GLORIA¨ I´m trying not to laugh.. and then she looks at us, still kneeling, and says, ¨what? Do you not pray like this?¨Yeah, no, not really. So my first pascua in chile was very interesting!

I´m loving all the study I´m able to do. I wish i had hours and hours! This week it´s hit me that I need to become a good missionary. Not merely act and do the things a good missionary does, but become more like the savior. I realized that all our scriptures, church, missions, and all, is worth nothing if we don´t let it change our hearts. If we can´t get the scriptures in us, and into our lives, then what´s the point? THe point of everything is to help people become more like the Lord. Adapt more of his character. And change our hearts. ANd keep progressing and changing until the natural man inside of us is completely gone, swallowed up in Christ. I do´nt want to clock time on my mission card and come home the same person. I want to completely offer everything-- all my heart, my desires, my wishes, my dreams-- everything to the Lord. I´ve consecrated my time, my talents, my efforts, to the Lord. But I realized today that I need to consecrate myself so that I´m completely able to be molded by the Lord. 

Kinsey, this week we´ve been watching a lot of the district (you will come to know this VERY well) and evertime they were in their house like planning or studying or something, we´d pause the dvd and drool over their living conditions. They have REAL desks. Do you even know how nice that would be? And CARPET! I haven´t seen carpet since the mtc. I think I´d die if I saw carpet in a house. OR little things like cutting boards. They don´t exist here!! I´m becoming quite good at improvising! We have new pets! Slugs. Which really aren´t too bad. But they are as big as my hand! It´s ...different. 

Okay I gotta go write some other emails. I love you all so much! 

Hermana Ferrell

Monday, March 11, 2013

Morgans letter form Chile

Hola Family and Friends! How is everyone doing?! mom and dad, I loved your emails. I´ll write you both personal emails back as soon as I´m done with this family-friend one. This week has been an interesting one. No, I don´t have my own house yet. They were supposed to be done with it on thursday, and lets just say this culture isn´t quite as punctual as america. But hopefully we get to move in tomorrow! At least that´s what I´m hoping for. Right now I´m using the stove for a desk. And it´s not really working out! 

OKAY! So I have a good story to start out with. So yesterday. I was at this member´s house for almuerzo (the members feed us almuerzo here 5 times a week- which is the HUGE meal of the day). This lady is a little odd, but nice. And she brings our plates out and it´s mashed potatoes and a bunch (and I mean a BUNCH) of this reallly, really strange looking meat. Yes, it´s time for the typical weird missionary food story and I haven´t been here two weeks! And this family is extremely poor. They live in this shack practically and they have pretty much nothing. They didn´t even eat with us- the parents and their kids just sat there and watched us eat. It was really sad. So I decide to eat the potatoes first because i´m kinda dreading the meat. So I start eating the meat and I want to throw up. I pride myself on liking practically every type of food. But yesterday I found something that I dislike quite a lot. So I´m eating this meat and the little voice inside my head keeps telling me that I really don´t want to know what I´m eating and that I should just ask after I eat. Well, against my better judgment, the words somehow tumble out of my mouth, ¨what kind of meat is this?

My little voice was definitely right this time. I didn´t want to know!! I was eating cow udder. YEAH, COW UDDER. How gross is that?! It was all spongy and rather rubbery. And also, the meat that was twisted up like a donut was the intestine of the cow. There was also sausage which was an additional intestine. Yum. Well at that point I was in the midst of chewing a bite and had to fight with all my might to keep from gagging. My companion caught my eye and kinda raised her eyebrows like "you better eat that". And they were so poor I couldn´t not eat it... so I forced myself to stomach one nasty bite at a time. I was saved when the Hermana left the room for a minute and I put the rest of the meat in my napkin and stashed it in my backpack. Sick nasty. Cow udder. That´s just wrong! 

Kids, take the piano seriously! I forgot to write about this last week. But last sunday was general conference. I´m in the stake center with a bunch of members and I was the only one that could play the piano. Yesterday I had my normal sunday meeting and the branch president was so, so, so grateful I could play the piano. He said that for as long as he can remember they´ve never had a pianist. Ha, and I could definitely tell by the way they sung the opening song! But isn´t that sad? It´s kinda funny though. You know those tiny, pocket size himnos? That´s all the members there have, and it´s all I have. So I was playing the piano out of that!! Good thing I have great eye sight.. also, I have a story of Madalyn Taylor! After Stake Conference two sundays ago an american elder came up to me and asked where I was from and what not. He´s from North Ogden and I was asking if her knew Cragun Liston and natalie campbell. He said they were his really good friends and he asked how I knew them. I said that we had the same piano teacher. And he said, "oh yeah! That really really really hard amazing teacher? No wonder you play so well! Isn´t her name Madalyn Taylor?" Haha I thought that was funny. But thanks to madalyn the people of Chile have a pianist now! 

The organization of the church here is so interesting... I had a meeting with the "ward council" (and I use that name loosely) and man it was eye opening. I´m used to the church being ran in pretty much perfection. Dad, especially with you and the way you run your stake. they don´t even have a computer to organize everything here. They still organize everything by paper! It´s a mess. They branch president is amazing. He´s 26 years old and by far the most organized person in the entire ward council even though they´re all twice his age. And then church on sunday... wow. The don´t have pews. Just plastic chairs for a chapel. In the relief society room they have a print out of the logo. There are pictures hung up throughout the chapel that have been cut out of an ensign and glued onto brightly colored cardstock. But the members are all so sweet. It´s just SO different. Modesty is never talked about here... hahah so almost all of the women were wearing quite interesting things! Which is cool, at least they´re trying! And I visited yw´s for a bit and most of them were in jeans. I´m being so humbled here. I can´t believe what I have at home. I come from the perfect world. I go into people´s houses and see the way the live and the poverty that most of them live in... and I just can´t even picture home honestly. Our house seems like a fairtytale. I just can´t wrap my mind around the fact I ever lived in so much luxury. 

My standard of living has drastically changed. I walked into a member´s home the other day and thought, wow this is a nice house! And then laughed in my head as I realized it was probably 5 times trashier than my glenwood apartment. And I thought that was small and bad! Oh how naive of me... my glenwood apartment would be considered SUPER nice here. I was so, so spoiled. I was laying in bed last night and realized that the house I was living in would be thought to be the very worst in america. but here in chile it´s awesome.

This week has been a little hard honestly. It´s just been rough, not much sucecss... but I´ve been praying and thinking about ways to improve and when I asked my companion about them she said, oh yeah, we should probably be doing that. Um, okay. But it is good I guess. Next week will be better. I love being a missionary. I just want to actually help bring souls to Christ. But I´m working as hard as i can and being exactly obedient... so... I hope good things will come! I love you all. Kinsey, I AM SO EXCITED ABOUT YOUR CALL I CAN HARDLY STAND IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ah!!! Such an exciting thing. It will be so weird to have you all in peru just one country above me! It´ll be so great to hear ALL about your experiences there!

Mucho amor,

Hermana ferrell 

Tuesday, February 19, 2013

Watch out Chile!

I"M GOING TO CHILE IN 6 DAYS!!!!!!! I'm only STOKED OUT OF MY MIND!! Ah, sorry that was kind of spastic, but I cannot wait to go. Anyways, Hi! How's it going? I LOVED the bday backage. The pictures were definitely the best part. It was so weird to see the pics of me on my first day here. That seems like years, and years, and years ago. I feel like a completely different person. All of you look great! I loved the Valentine's day package as well. I don't know if I already told you that or not, but those little valentines made my whole week! That was really sweet. I'm so glad that I have such a supportive family. It would be hard to be here in the MTC without any family support. I can't believe we're going to have a family of Chinese speakers. Haha that's great! I absolutely love hearing from all of you. Seriously, nothing is greater than a letter from my family! (Shay and Mina, you fit in that category!)

So let me explain why I am excited to leave the MTC. Yo he amado el MTC, pero estoy muy, muy lista salir!! Because I want to share this gospel. Knowing that there are people that don't know about the gospel makes me want to get out of here and bring them to a knowledge of God. I love the way Ammon puts it, "bring others to sing the song of redeeming love." I have felt that within myself and want to help as many people as possible feel that. My only desire right now is to do that. I feel like I'm about to jump in head first into this work. I'm on the brink of familiarity and ready to push off into the unknown. I was reading the story of the people of the Brother of Jared the other day and realized that I really can relate to them right now. They left their land in their barges by "commending themselves unto the Lord their God." That's how I feel. I'm leaving the MTC, I don't know what is going to happen to me, I have no idea what I'm jumping into, but I know that the Lord will guide me just like he has the people in the scriptures.

I was reading in Alma 26 about Ammon praising the Lord. He talks about how the Lord took care of them, "wanderers in a strange land." I'm about to become exactly that. And I look at the miracles and great things that happened among the Lamanites during Ammon's mission, and I know that if I have faith in the Lord, I will see miracles. In Ether 12 Moroni talks about how it was because of the faith of Ammon and his brethren that caused such great miracles to happen among the Lamanites. That has caused me to think deeply about my own faith. God never changes and perhaps according to my own faith, I can see similar miracles among the Chilean people. President Packer talks about having the type of faith that causes things to happen. I want to have that type of faith as I head out into this adventure. I can feel that my entire life is about to change yet again. And I am so excited. But at the same time, I've never felt more completely and utterly reliant on the Lord.

Ever sunday all the missionaries in my branch are supposed to prepare a talk, and then the branch pres picks two people randomly. So I was picked last Sunday! I was so glad I'd actually prepared a decent talk! It was actually a really neat experience. I felt the spirit helping me and I had the words that I needed, and I actually felt like the words I was saying were from my heart. Afterward the Branch Pres told me what I great job I'd done and said, "it's incredlble, you don't have speech problem at all when you speak spanish." ....uh, thanks?! Haha so yeah, there you go! My "speech problem" isn't evident in Spanish!

OKAY, I have travel plans. I got them last week and literally just about died of happiness. 10 weeks here is just way too long. Let me give you the Low Down.

--I report to the MTC travel office at 4 am (fun. Seriously though, it's fun. Because it means I'm OUTTA here!!!!)

--My flight leaves SLC at 7:00

--I arrive in Los Angeles (LAX) at 7:55 (i'm assuming that's local time?)

--I leave LAX at 12:30 pm (Feb 25th)

--I arrive in Santiago, Chile at 7:00 am (Feb 26. Yeah, that's a super long flight)

--I leave for Concepcion at 12:45 pm

--I arrive at Concepcion at 1:50 pm.

SO!! Loooong flights. But it doesn't matter! I just hope I sit next to somebody that needs the gospel! The best time to talk will be in LAX. I have a few hours to call there. I have no idea how long it will take to get to the terminal, find phones, and all that.... I'm assuming I should be able to call at approximately 9 or 9:30 cali time. So, 10 or 10:30 for you. What do you think?? Will that work? Dad, I know you have work. A conference call would be good. I can do whatever! I can call mom first, and then dad, and then kinsey. Or... yeah. I'm just so incredibly excited to talk to all of you. I should be on the computer for the next little while, because I have to do some stuff for travelling. So if you email me back I will see it!!

I love you all so much. CRAZY that this time next week I'll be preaching the gospel! Or at least... trying to butcher my way through in broken Spanish!

Hermana Morgan Ferrell 



Tuesday, February 12, 2013

February 12, 2013

Hello dearest family and friends! I loved getting that email from you that you all wrote me your thoughts in. That was really touching. There are some power-houses in our family! I think all of you are going to do some great things in life and make some awesome missionaries. Boys, I can tell that you have grown so much. It's weird to think there's only 7 kids at home... ha. Only 7. That's still a lot, but it seems small! Mom, thanks for your dear elders. I absolutely love getting letters from my friends but nothing is better than letters from you and dad. Kinsey, I totally forgot to mail your letter last week. I'm sorry!! I love you and wish we could do a Zupas run. You have no idea how bad I want good food. Shay, mina, you two are the best friends in the world. I loved all the letters Haley gave me from all you. I laughed for a long time! I need to send a special shout out to Aunt Shaunna... you have no idea how much your packages and letters have helped me!! You are so sweet. Thank you so much for being so supportive of me. I wrote you a letter as well, so be expecting that. It's been a really good week. A hard one, a really really hard one in a lot of ways, but great.

So I have a few updates. I saw Haley!!! We had such a joyful reunion! I haven't been so happy to see anyone in my life. I thought I was going to break her back I was hugging her so hard. We both cried. And our dorms are in the same residence halls so we were able to talk for a long time. It's so great to see her and be able to have one of my best friends here! It's fun speaking spanglish to each other! Hopefully in 18 months time we both speak beautiful spanish... but that day seems quite far distant at this moment! So guess what? Cassandra Anderson is going to be in my zone! Which is CRAZY. There will be three Morgan girls in one zone. What are the chances?!

I was taught a really important lesson this week and had a powerful/life changing experience... I was walking out of the temple last week and had been praying for a lot of things, but especially the ability to love others, particularly my companion. I read in Alma 5 about being "sufficiently humble" and asking God to help me increase in Humility. I've been praying for a lot of things that are hard for me and so and so on. Well, I have never had this happen before but it was like I heard the words come to mind, "serve your companion." And so this week I've made that my priority. I've tried to make her needs and her feelings the important thing. And then on Sunday night, I heard a talk that seriously has changed the way I see the world. Every sunday night the MTC shows like 4 different talks and you can choose which one you want to go and see. THey're all recordings of previous talks from general authorities and apostles that have been given within in the last few years here at the MTC. So it's great! Starting in April, the talk that Elder Holland just gave will be showing! So Kinsey you'll get to see it!! But this week I went to a talk that Elder Bednar gave 8 months ago. It's called the Character Of Christ.

I'm sitting here at the computer crying trying to express this talk... I wish so bad these talks were available to the public. During his talk I was writing as fast and as much as I could because I knew I would never be able to hear it again. I'm REALLY hoping that he gives it at an upcoming general conference! But it still wouldn't be the same. He was addressing missionaries and wasn't nearly as "formal" as he would be in general conference. Watching this talk, it felt like he was really there. I felt the power of his words just as powerfully as if he was! I'm going to do my best and tell you some of the highlights. (Dad, you would have LOVED this talk. Mom, I think it ties in with the talk you are sending me about conversion!)

He quoted Neal A Maxwell and said (more or less, I don't have my notes in front of me!), "without the Character of Christ the Atonement would not have been possible." So what is this Character of Christ? Elder Bednar said that he had devoted much of his studies to this topic and challenged us to do the same. There were hundreds of examples of this character being displayed in scriptures, and to continue developing it within ourselves. He defined Character as this, "moral attributes strongly developed, strikingly displayed, and consistently lived. And this is the character of Christ: Christ turned outward when the natural man would have turned inward. Isn't that profound? That every time in Christ's life where all of us would have turned inward and been self-absorbed, self-centered, and selfish, Christ turned outward. When Satan came and tempted Christ, Elder Bednar said that there was only one primary temptation and that it was this: if you Thou be the Son of God, betray your divine heritage, and use your powers to satisfy the natural man. Of course, Christ did not. I wish I had time to point out all of the instances that Elder Bednar said that Christ exemplified this character trait. He quoted Mosiah 3:19 probably 5 different times and emphasized the part about putting off the natural man and becoming a saint through the Atonement of Christ. We should, in our lives, focus on turning from the natural man. Turn from selfishness, and look outward. Then he shared multiple experiences where others he has seen have exhibited this character. We are able to put this natural man off as we apply the Atonement of Christ. We become saints through adopting the character of Christ: turning outward when the natural man would have turned inward.

Then he look at us and said (pretty emphatically),

"Get over yourselves. Get over yourselves and get out of the way. Turn your life outward and miracles will start to happen. This mission isn't about you. It's not your work. It's Christ's."

We need to BECOME representatives of Christ and be outward focused missionaries. I can't explain in this short amount of time (I took 8 pages of notes) how much this talk changed me. I wish there was a way to convey better the message! But it was exactly what I needed to hear.

Okay I gotta go!! I love you all so much. Happy Valentines day! I pray for all of you everyday and I really hope everything is going great. Can you believe I leave in under two weeks?! ONLY ONE MORE PDAY!!!!!!! CRAZY!

With all the love that I have,

Hermana Morgan Ferrell

Wednesday, February 6, 2013

Hermana Ferrell's latest letter

Greeting Familia and Friends!!! How are you doing this week? Okay, first of all. I loved your package! Thank you so, so, so much. Seriously, packages make so much of a difference here. Kinsey, I wrote you a letter already this morning, but your package was SUCH a hit. Haha all the sisters in my zone thought you were the most awesome thing ever. And you are!! Both of those packages came on the same day when I was having a pretty rough day. So they really made an impact. As always, so many things to say and not enough time! But here goes...

Can you believe I don't leave until the 25th? Good grief I'm ready to go! I'll have been here 10 weeks. That's longer than Shaylee will be here and she's learning Cantonese!! I love the MTC, I really do, but I want to go teach real people with real lives and just real everything! There's this thing they do here at the MTC called TRC and it's where members come in once a week and we teach them a lesson (in Spanish, of course!). It's really great. The lessons are 40 minutes long and I had some really neat experiences this week. The guy we taught was Jake and in his evaluation note he told us that he hadn't felt the spirit that strong in a long time and that he felt his faith was drastically increased in the Savior. That made me feel so good that the spirit was able to touch people's lives through me. Kinsey, you should check out signing up for TRC. With all these new missionaries I'm sure they need a lot more volunteers!

 I had a few Spanish mis-haps this week. One of my "investigadores" wife's name is Charity. Well, the day before I taught him my comp and I had been practicing teach the law of Chastity. In the lesson with this guy, I called his wife Castidad instead of Caridad. Ha, whoops. Also I was posing as an investigador for one of the missionaries in my district (for more practice) and it was like 8 at night and I was tired. I opened the door and met to say, "Hola!!" But instead opened it and said, "Gracias!!!" Hahah, it was a little funny.

Last Wednesday I got to be a host for new sister missionaries! It was so fun. I was assigned to a girl and took her to her room, got her books, and dropped her off at her class. I remember that day for myself so vividly! It was weird to be the experienced "old" one. I'm hosting tomorrow as well! So I'm DEFINITELY on the look for Haley and Kendal! There are a thousand new missionaries coming in tomorrow. Last week there were 750! The growth is CRAZY and just so great that so many people are answering the call to serve. Elder Clayton (from the 70) came and talked to us last week and read a part of Elder Holland's talk from the general conference before last (so April) and Elder Holland called for more missionaries in the upcoming years and months. Who knew that that would really be happening!

Honestly, this week has been pretty hard. I feel like I'm... I don't know. I just feel like I'm still lacking so much and just spinning my wheels. My Spanish is mediocre and so are my teaching abilities... but, we'll see. It's kinda hard sometimes to stay feeling good about yourself when the person that is with you 24/7 is constantly picking you apart. But it's good. It's good. Because at least I'm aware of my weaknesses! I just happened to already be aware that I had a boat load of them... But I'm learning a lot about the promises of the Lord and about faith. Ether 12:27 is kind of my motto.

I'm trying to learn to love the snowy days. Because I've learned that it's only when we're pushed to the very edge of the perimeters of our comfort zones that our abilities are expanded. I wrote this in my letter to Melina last week, but I was thinking about running and how much I wanted to go run outside instead of on the track. It's because the track is monotonous and boring. I actually miss the hills. What's so great about the flats of life? Nothing good in life is flat. Growth happens on the hills. Kins, I loved the quotes you sent me. The master carpenter keeps building our inner mansions, and it hurts. The divine physician keeps working, and it's painful. The master coach tells us to keep running, and it sometimes feels like too much. Eventually the finished product will be good as long as I keep following the plans of the Lord. At least, I have faith in that.

Okay, gotta go. I love you all! Mom, you're letter was sweet. I'm writing you back a real letter. I liked the one sweetheart box ;) But thanks again for the packages! Dad, your emails are so great. I love hearing from my dad, sometimes I just need a dad's letter, you know? I really, really enjoy hearing from you. Ellie and Jackson, you both have letters coming that I wrote this morning! And Kinsey :)

Haley, I'm gonna find you tomorrow!! I'm STOKED to see you!

With all my love,

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

Hermana Ferrell latest letter

My dearest family and friends!!

I love you so much. I just feel so much love for all of you. Everytime I pray (which is QUITE a lot here) I think about and pray for all of you! I hope everything is going great. Where to start... so in my weekly planner that all the missionaries use I keep a list of things to write you about I have filled 2 whole pages with things I should tell you. So we'll see how much I can get through!!

First of all, one of the executive directors of the MTC came and did a fireside with us last tuesday and was talking about the way this MTC was going to increase. He said that the huge devotional room that fits 3,000 missionaries will be completely filled with sisters by the summer time. CRAZY. He said that probably around april or may, devotionals and MTC conferences would have to be moved to the Marriott Center! It's incredible to see how much more crowded the MTC has become just in the 6 weeks I've been here. I saw the Cosgraves on Sunday! That was fun. We took a picture and I think they sent it to you...

I've had a lot of powerful experiences this week. Earlier this week I seriously could not handle it anymore and the only thing that was going to keep me from snapping was praying. So I said probably the longest prayer I've ever said in my life. And just pleaded with the Lord to help me. Well at the end of my prayer I had this thought come to my mind "look inward." and after thinking and pondering I realized something.. I was the problem. There was something inside of me that was off, not her. I had to fix myself. So I've been studying Christlike attributes and Charity like crazy. And just trying to really change me. And WOW, things are changing. I have to tell you about this one experience. One of my investigator's (her name is Erika) has been progressing so well. Then her husband Gerardo started sitting in on the lessons. And he is a pain. He doesn't believe in God and we spend most of our time with him talking in circles in broken spanish. All of the other missionaries in my district can't get ANYWHERE with him (the investigators are our teachers) and we're all frustrated. Well my companion and I decided to plan a lesson yesterday and we prayed very sincerely for the gift of discernement and to be able to plan this lesson the way the Lord wanted it planned. So we show up to the appointment and we're giving our lesson and it's going nowhere. When all of a sudden I had the thought to ask him hypothetically, that if there were a God, why would that be important? And he said a pretty good answer. And then Alma 32:27 came to mind so we read that and all of a sudden the spirit came into the room very strong. I asked him, "do you have a desire to believe in God?" And he said yes... and then my companion bore the sweetest, most sincere testimony. And the spirit was THERE! It was incredible! And then we decided to ask him to pray. And of course, he said no. Well, I asked him if he had a question to ask God. And he said yes, I want to know if God is real. And then I asked if there was a blessing he wanted to thank God for. And he said his family. And I said that was perfect! That's all he had to say in his prayer. So we all knelt down and Gerardo prayed and he asked, "will you let me know if you are real?" And the spirit bore witness in the most powerful way... I can't even describe it. I have never felt so strongly that God was real before. For lack of a better word, it was amazing. The spirit in the room was tangible. Afterwards, he committed to reading the Book of Mormon! I am so excited to help real people feel like that. To feel that God is so real and change their lives!

My branch president is incredible! Dad, he reminds me of you so much. The way he speaks and everything is just bold and powerful. He came to our district meeting on Sunday (and that is kind of like Sunday School here) and we were talking about the Book of Mormon. He REALLY inspired me. He was talking about living in this day and age. This is the time of all times to be alive. I wrote similar things home after Elder Holland came, but I still feel them burning inside of me and want to share them you! This is the time that prophets have looked forward to and prophesied of since Adam. Every dispensation before now has failed , but we aren't going to. I don't know what I did before this life to merit being born at this time, but whatever I did, I better live worthy of it. I owe something! This is NOT the time to be weak and waver and doubt. It's time to get a testimony that will astonish people. And siblings, you can't wait until you're on a mission to get a testimony like this. The sooner you catch the vision of this work and become fully converted to the gospel, the better it will be! . My branch president said (and like I said he's bold and passionate, like Elder Holland), "Do you have the ability and power within you to forget your petty fears and insignificant lives and fully enlist in this work?" Seriously, I need to pull out all of the stops. And I don't think that applied to just missionaries... we should all figure out what might be holding us back to fully committing to the Lord. Cause this is the place to be!!

Another thing that I have realized here is the importance of Joseph Smith. Jesus Christ falls into an entirely different category with the Atonement, and I owe every single thing to Him. But he wasn't solely mortal, He was divine. No mortal man has changed my life more than Joseph Smith. I have put my entire life into the work that he started. Because of him, everything I have, that I am, that I'm doing, that I will do is different. His ability to swim in deep water is inspiring to me. It reminds me that even when it gets rough, that he had it worse. And then I think about my Savior and that he descended beneath the burden of everyone's pain and sin and struggle. I'm so grateful to be associated with this gospel. It is such a blessing that I can never express my thanks enough for!

Well, I gotta go. I love it here but I am excited to go to Chile!! I'm hosting new missionaries tomorrow so I'm excited about that! I love you family. I feel a little self centered to just write about myself. Know that I LOVE hearing from you!! Let me know if there is anything I can do for all of you.

Love always,

Morgan 

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Morgan's P-Day letter

Hi family and friends! I hope you enjoy all the pictures. I just realized I'm pretty much wearing the same outfit in all of them... I promise I don't wear that everyday! I guess that I just wear it on the day I decide to take pictures! I'll try and send a few more next week.

So this week has been wonderful! Great things have happened! I'm glad my letter made it to you about Elder Holland. I'm still feeling the effects of his talk. It really hit me deep. Everyone here at the MTC are major enthusiasts of Elder Holland! I've been here for 5 weeks tomorrow. Can you believe that?? CRAZY. It feels as if I've been in this place my whole life. And that I've still got an eternity left! And it's alright, because I like it here. I've had some of the best experiences of my life these past few weeks. Missions truly are the greatest thing ever. I was the very first week of 19 year olds and now, there are sisters everywhere. We have relief society every week with ALL the sisters and we almost fill up the entire auditorium. It's great.

The MTC Presidency just changed. And our new president is awesome! I actually had a really neat experience with meeting him. So Elder Slavens and Elder Woodbury and I have been getting this musical number ready (Savior, Redeemer of My Soul) and it sounds really good. So I told you last week that Elder Woodbury somehow got it into his head that we should audition. Aaaaand we made it! we performed on Sunday. IT WAS SO STRESSFUL I CANNOT EVEN TELL YOU. I'd rather have 5 piano recitals with Madalyn. Now you know how stressful it was. So the auditorium is set up like the conference center. There's the pulpit in the middle like normal, and then because the room is so big, there are two HUGE screens mounted on the walls that the speaker's face is projected up on so everyone can see. Well, they also do that with those performing the musical numbers. So I sit down and I start playing and good grief I've never prayed so hard in my entire life. It was the most trippy thing, while I was playing I could see one of the screens out of the corner of my eye and the cameras kept putting me up there!! Especially on my solo. AH it was so stressful. But so, so, so rewarding because we nailed it. Anyway, afterwards, I got to talk to the MTC president for a while. And we also had front row seats! Which was fun! The president's wife also did a special musical number and his played the piano and his 5 daughters played the most beautiful violin piece. All from memory! And then for the closing song they had the 5 daughters, plus 5 grandkids play a whole violin piece. From memory! It was so beautiful.

One of the Elders in our zone had to go home on Saturday. It was so incredibly sad. Apparently he didn't "clear stuff up" before he left. Yeah, don't you dare do that boys. Just thought I'd throw that in here...

I've made the decision to start speaking in all Spanish when I'm with my district and zone. It's been really difficult because I can't express everything. Ah it's SO frustrating! But my district is really bright and really motivated. We're about to finish our entire grammar book. So, we've just about learned all the Spanish we can here at the MTC. Now are we good at it? Eh, not so much. But we're very slowly yet surely coming along. We're going to have 4 weeks of review so hopefully we can somehow get this language into our heads. I went to write my Sacrament talk on Sunday and wrote a draft in English. And then translated it, and it was amazing! I only had to look up one conjugation! The Lord is really blessing me. I can feel His help so strongly in my life right now. I feel like everything I do I'm completely dependent upon His ayuda. And it's been a humbling thing. I can't speak without help, I can't teach, I can't deal with my companion, I can't learn, I seriously cannot do anything without the Lord. I feel really needy but I've never felt so strengthened before. Dad, I can see what you've been talking about the enabling power of the Atonement. I'm so grateful I'm learning what this feels like. I've never had to plead with more sincerity of help before. And it's changing who I am. I feel different on the inside. I've really been trying to internalize what Alma calls the "mighty change of heart." I love this gospel. My heart is so full right now! I love what Elder Holland said. So many people have this view that the missionary experience is two years (or 18 months) is an abnormal amount of time set apart and above from our normal lives and that when we return home we go back to "real life." No. This is THE life. It's the ONLY life. And it truly is the best possible life. I'm not going to ever stop some of the habits I've developed here. This time here in the MTC has already drastically changed my entire future and eternity. Christ told his apostles that no man having put his hand to the plow, and looking back, is fit for the kingdom of God. Well, I've put my hand to the plow and I don't intend to ever look back.

I love you all so much. Ellie, thanks SO much for your letter! Sabrina, I wrote you a letter this morning! So look out for those :) I LOVE hearing from you.

Jacob. Jackson. You're going to be in trouble if I don't hear from you soon!! Kins I also wrote you a letter!! And mom, you too! Dad, I'm about to go respond to your email! I'm so lucky to have such an awesome support group. And it's also a good thing that I love to write so much!! I look forward to writing you all. Shay and Hay, your letters are bomb. Seriously, I've been re-reading them and laughing my head off. Love you!! Melina, I haven't heard from you in a while!! Write me chica!

I love you so much! Have a great week :)

Hermana Morgan Ferrell

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

Morgan's latest P-day letter!


Family and Friends!! Oh how I love you! It has been a long, but wonderful week. First off, thanks SO much for the package!! I LOVED IT! And it defintiely came on a day when I needed a little bit of love. The zen mix is awesome! Loved that. Seriously, I loved the whole package so I really appreciate the thoughts that went into it :)
 
Where do I start? Let's see... I got new teachers! One of them teaches in the morning and the other at night. Their names are Hermana Doxey and Hermano Byrd. And they are AWESOME. Just as good, if not better, than Hermano Rodriguez ( my last one). Hermana Doxey is especially amazing. I want to be like her. She's a powerhouse. And I'm really trying to implement her teachings into my lessons. I've already learned so much from her that it's really changed the way I think about missionary work. Hermano Byrd is also great. And I'm loving being taught by them!
 
Okay, so mom you mentioned Madalyn in your email to me. Haha, she'll get a kick out of what I'm about to say. And yes, this does taste like vinegar, but I am using my piano skills daily here at the MTC. All that time slaving away at the piano... yeah, it's paying off. I've been asked to be the music coordinator for my branch and because I'm one of the few that actually play in my branch I play all of the hymns for Sacrament. I also am accompanying several musical numbers! One of which is Savior, Redeemer of My Soul. The MTC music committee heard me play and asked me to be one of the MTC accompianists.  Yes, for the ENTIRE MTC. So, I could be playing in front of several thousands of missionaries at any point. Kind of nerve racking... but my skill is not going to waste that's for sure! Music is something I'm starting to love here. It's amazing to feel the spirit through music here. The other night the entire MTC audience sang Hope of Israel for one of the opening songs for a devotional. And wow, there have been few times that I have felt the spirit so strong in. All three thousand of us missionaries singing with our whole hearts is really moving.
 
So I have something to share with you that maybe all of you could benefit from. My personal motto for my mission is "Obey With Exactness." I know there is a real power that comes from being perfectly obedient. I want to obey all the rules and do everything I'm supposed to so that I can be the  very best instrument in the hands of Lord that I can be. I'd like to invite all of you siblings of mine to be do the same. I was reading in Nefi about the difference between he and Laman and Lemuel. The reason that L&L rebelled against their father is because they didn't understand the reason behind the commandments. They thought they came from Lehi and murmured because "they knew not the dealings of God". I look back on my life and wonder why I wasn't more exact. I complained and fought mom and dad so much about  things because I didn't understand the reasons they had rules. I didn't stop and think that mom and dad were just trying to obey the commandments of God. I definitely could have obeyed with more exactness. So maybe think before complaining about rules, and try to understand that they come from God. From the movies you watch to the music you listen to! I know that when we're obedient we can do incredible things. I've been thinking about what Madalyn Taylor taught me about the wedding dress missing a sleeve. Or the 90 percent baked chicken. No one wants to eat or wear stuff like that! I don't want to be a 90 percent committed missionary. I want to be 100 percent all the way obedient to the Lord. And I want to stay that way my whole life! So let's all be completely committed to Lord and decide right now where we stand on keeping the commandments, whether big or small.
 
I LOVE the temple. It was incredible to go today (and last week). I'm really glad I got to go a lot before my mission. Well, I'm short on time today. I have to go! I love you so much. I know this church is true and that it's the Lord's work! Thanks so much for the letter dad, that really gave me a boost. I'm writing you a letter with many more details! So be expecting that!!!!!
 
With all the love in the world,
 
Hermana Morgan Ferrell

Tuesday, January 8, 2013

morgan's p-day letter


Hola mi familia and amigos!! Oh this has been such a phenomenal week. I can't even begin to describe in words some of the things that have happened. Some incredibly spiritual things, like out of this world. And a bunch of semi interesting things. I'll start with those! But first off, this week I have felt your prayers more than anyother time. Seriously, I feel so much love for all of you and think about you a lot. Sabrina and Eli, your letters made my WHOLE week!! I'm writing you both back, but I just had to say how much I loved those. You guys are the best little siblings ever! So be looking forward to letters E and bina :)
 
So.. I SURVIVED! For real, it has been a crazy place here the past week. The entire MTC got hit with this huge strain of the flu. They cancelled devotionals, and set all these weird rules. THere's a no handshake policy still in place and if you are sick you aren't allowed to leave your room for at least 24 hours. If you are throwing up acid or blood, you had to be quarrantined. Get this, HALF of the missionaries got sick. They even broke the companionship rule cause if half of everyone is sick that means there's nobody in class. But be proud of my immune system of steel, I have survived. I should probably knock on some wood really quick...
 
Speaking of health, haha I have developed quite the repuation here. I would like to announce something: I found the Splenda packets!!!!!!!! Best day ever. At gym yesterday I passed by the scale and thought I might as well evaluate what damage has been done... and to my immense surprise... I've lost about 10 pounds! Crazy right? I've noticed my clothes are a lot more loose, but honestly I don't have time to even think about it. It seems like every mintue here is filled up with the gospel or spanish or some other missionary thing!
 
I saw Sister Hodges! We had a lovely chat. I found Grandma and Grandpa's mission president picture and took a pic by it! I'll send it home when I can. So here's a fun spanish story. I'm teaching the Plan of Salvation to one of my investigators, and I'm talking about why we need the Atonement. I told them that the only thing keeping us away from God is our sins. I later found out the real word for sins are "pecados" definitely not "pescados". Which means fish. SO yeah that was a fun experience. Also, the other day I opened my mouth in class to say something in class and Arabic came out. That was weird. Like fluent Arabic. No idea where in the bottomless pit of my brain that came from...
 
So now for the spiritual. We watched a talk Elder Holland gave to the MTC earlier this year about the Book of Mormon. He asked a few random missionaries what they had their investigators read for the first time reading in the BOM. They all said a variety of things. Then he had a few missionaries come up and talk about what was actually in the first chapter of the first book of Nephi. I was so embarrassed for them, most of them had NO clue what was in it. But he went on to say, that if we could get our investigators to read just the first chapter of the BOM that would be the most wonderful thing. What's in this first chapter? A young Nephi desiring to know the mysteries of God, a prophet praying to the Lord for help, receiving a vision, being given a special book, and being commanded to take the message to the world.  RING A BELL!? The 1 Ne chap 1 contains the prophetic pattern. It will resonate with investigators who have just been taught the Joseph Smith story. It testifies that it is the way God works. He said that unless we were under speicific direction from the spirit to do otherwise, we should always challenge our investiagors to begin reading the BOM with the very first chapter and help them see that it truly is the propetic way. So interesting right?! Also, he said that perhaps it was the infinite wisdom of God that the 116 pages should be lost. Because what better chapter could you being this book with than one that re-testifies of the experience of the prophet Joseph Smith?
 
I was studying in Nephi more this past week and was talking to my Teacher about some of things I'd leared. He made a very interesting observation. Nephi, Sam, Laman, and Lemuel were all on the exact same journey. They all had to leave, go back to get the plates, the daughters, trek through the wilderness, build a boat, cross the ocean, and live in the promised land. But oh what a different type of experience they all had. Nephi had some of the most powerful spiritual experiences you could hope for, and grew in the knowledge of the Lord. While L&L only did the bare minimum. They just skimmed by on what they had to. They abandoned the gospel. WHat makes the difference? What you put into the journey and what you allow the Lord to do with your sould. That is so true with missionaries. There are some that go through this experience and come home with nothing changed. THey fall back in old habits and become who they used to be. But there are some who come home with their hearts changed. And that's who I want to be.  
 
On Sunday night they showed the Joseph Smith Story film to all of us in the big devotional room. I cannot tell you what a powerful spiritual experience it was. I have NEVER felt the spirit so overwhelming strong my entire life. When Joseph said, "shall we not go on in so great a cause?" there was not a dry eye in the room. Being in the MTC, surrounded by thousands of missionaries all called to take the gospel to the end of the earth. We are carrying this cause forward. I have never felt such a strong emotion inside of me bearing testimony that this was the truth. Sunday was fast sunday and I was fasting for a variety of things. And Sunday was the most powerful day of my entire life up to this point. Sacrament was wonderful. I bore my testimony in broken Spanish and had to slip into English at the end, but I felt the spirit that whole day so strongly that even though I couldn't speak the language I had to bear my testimony.
 
After three weeks here and having the Lord teach me so many wonderful things, I want to tell all of you something. No matter what comes in life. Come hell or high water, sickness, heartache, loss, death, it doesn't matter, I will never forsake this church. I will follow my Savior and the prophet until the end of my life. I believe with every ounce of strength I have inside of my that this is the true church of Jesus Christ. I will side with this church until the bitter end. I cannot wait to go to Chile and tell everyone possible about this gospel. I understand what the prophets say when they wish they were angels!! I wish everyone could know. I am going to boldly testify to the people of Chile that this is the way. My mission is NOT a burden or a requirement or anything of the sort. It is my honor and my privilege to be a representative of Jesus Christ and share his gospel. 18 months isn't long enough to do what I need to do.
 
I love this gospel! I'm writing you a letter!! I'll send it off today because I have more to say. Dad, I got your email and I love you! I'll write you for sure today! Much love always :)
 
Morgan